i tossed and turned in bed but i cannot sleep. argh!
im so excited because someone wanted to buy my VS "speedy" bag, it's not that i cant wait to get rid of it because it's very nice, but i always wanted to get a C&K bag but i have no extra cash, so i guess to get rid of the pre-loved, to get a new love!
it's been a part of me and part of me wanted to withdraw the transaction but this deserves a better owner because im so bad to my bags :(

 
managed to edit a pic.

my fringe is growing so i guess i'll leave it for the moment till i cannot stand it anymore,
im going to dye my hair black because i also cannot stand the roots being black and the rest of my hair being another ( color),
and guess what? im having free brow trimming @ stage next tues! :D say temporary goodbye to fuzzywuzzy thick brows.

okay im going to find something to do before i tuck in at 3:30am ( my aim to zzzz)
i think wenqi and js are in their laladreamland already.
 

( love )

have a great day you! (:

 

( tried to take more pictures this year! )

i don't know which is worst- watching you suffer or watching you die.
i don't want either.

 ***

alot of things are not working to my favor, but seriously, as long as im not aggravating the problem, im very much letting them pass,
yes i have no solutions to that and i cant speak of it,
my family's in a chunk of mess that i don't wish to speak of nor seek understanding,
guess my bro would agree to a large extent.


js came over my place and we spent some time just doing nothing, i like it that way once in a while.
then we ate at xin wang's for supper and someone farted four times and he wanted to do a "revenge fart",
not very smart but before he parted, he let loose one and only i was victimized.

his fart smells twice as bad as the one i smelt in xinwang.


my fave @ xinwang, plus topped up condensed milk is a must.

i'm really glad js gives me a lot of attention than it was months back,
maybe i seek more attention as well,
he's my boyfriend, def' he's my pillar of support most times,
and the support never gave way nor insecures,

 
because of that,
i'm thankful.
okay something very mushy to say here, but i think i should,
i so love you very much,
i won't exchange you with anything else.

;)

im disabling comments for this entry, sry.
just needed this entry.

***
 why did i only realise it too late
why didnt i try to spend more time with you to realise that i love you?

went to meet mon for dinner and she went shopping with me!
i think this is the only entry we didnt take pictures and we'll do it next week(:


me decided not to spend on yours truly but get gifts for mom to cheer her up and give her the energy boost for what's upcoming for her :)
a strong mother does not need to share her handbag with her daughter,
she will have her own.


a braun buffel leather handbag for her paid with salary
and a casual tee for new year/christmas/chinese new year paid by dear ol' bro.
it's not cheap ( at least for a student like me with an irregular salary) but its a gift i wish to give mommy to brighten up her spirits ( but obviouly she's already very positive) and telling her she'll be back to work very soon after this.

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buddies or something more?

i really wish to blog, like pictures and stuff but im really tied down at the moment, at least till friday,
so i decided to post a cheesy picture, which would probably be seen as a full post in the next few updates :)
that's taken during sarah, richard and js' birthday celebration by the canoeist haha.

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so so, my mom's op may be postponed but if you can, do help me pray for her.
i've a strong mother, and im proud of it.

like bro always said,
do your best, let God do the rest :)

 

Jess gave me a link to a young mother's blog, whom is also a friend of Krissy's.
Through these young mothers' blog ( i got to know when I navigated), I realised they formed a community.

So through the young mother, i read other young mummies' blogs.

To many ( and once myself), I felt that these young mothers are really silly because they could hardly feed themselves, how can they feed their child without high education and better job prospects? How to when you're 17-18, when your body isn't adjusted to be able to carry a child?

However, through these blog-readings, I somehow developed a different perspective.
These mothers, are still mothers afterall. Even if they had to live on bread and butter, they will give the best to their child/children. They also experience times when they feel so helpless and breakdown because they did not know how to teach their child, just like any adult parent. In fact, they go through a lot more than well educated, adult parents because they may lack the financial or physicaly ability to bring up a child.

However, compared to the adults, they may not lack, or they might even supercede the love they have, for their child, because of every thing they do.

I believe, bringing up a child and being a parent is a learning process,
and for the younger parents, it would be a harder one.

the next time i see a young mother,
i guess i would smile at her, bracing her for being able to bring up a child at a tender age,
something that i wouldnt have the ability to do.